behavioral change

2009-03-30 - 12:22 a.m.

I need one good week...actually I need a couple of good weeks but if I do well this week a certain extent of the next year will be set in the illusion of the where I want to be. I'm hoping that I am still aware enough to know that I don't know what I want. Yeah, man...

These emotions don't fit very well, but inserted into any context, either past memories or fantasied future situations they seem harmless and even applicable. I dream about reliving years of my life with the knowledge I have now, and it seems so fun and careless. I'm not sure how come, the wonderment of surprise would be gone and I for see myself holding onto this certainty of how I would act with a second chance. Perhaps the thought of another opportunity liquidates the phantom of something to lose. I feel aware that not much is mine in this existence, but recent day dreams depict misgivings that will always be a step above solid ground, as dreams often are.

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